an ode to men!

we love dem, we hate dem, we despise dem, but all said and done this group of da human species is a breed apart...

dey can't find their shoes which are rite infront of their noses, but their confidence is sky-rocketing...
dey forget dates,b'dayz n annivz bt rmb da exact statz of dat cricket match played 7 yrz ago...
dey seem so lost smtmz bt lead da pack neverthe less...
dey can drive to da Sahara Desert unaided, when actually they started for the neighbourhood Grocery Shop...
dey forget their IIT-IIM-MIT qualifications n behave like an adolescent teen wen a PYT passes by...
dey gossip,dey bitch no less bt da women gt all da top honours in these depttz...
dey can't follow da cooking instructions on a ready-to-eat pack, bt dey r self-made men...
dey can rmb all da shortcuts n da keys for da video n online games, bt even after living 3 yrz in the same house dont know which switch is for da fan...
dey can hit rats,spiders etc...but dey demselves are shit scared of Sales...esp 'Clearance Sales'...
dey r so lazy that dey wud rather stay hungry dan get-up-&-raid-da-fridge...
dey have an excuse everynite why a Beer is damn Essential n a LSD for dem tonite, bt see thru our excuses for our shoppin sprees completely...

despite all this, i still love da men in mah life...

for their inherent self-confidence...even when they dont know wat lies ahead...
for their ability to believe in demselves totally n completely...
for their foresight...yeah women gt emotionally driven many times...bt da men r a breed apart...
for their deceptions...oh i wish i ws so creative :D
for their arrogance...evn widout merit...dey bliv dt dey-have-it...
for da stand dat dey can take in life...foes,frndz evn family notwithstanding...
for showing their emotions less...as emotions weigh u down many tmz in life...
for bng a pillar of strenght...dat u cn count upon...
for seeing da bigger picture in life...n discarding da irrelevant nitty-gritties...
for nt asking4directions yt gng straight cock-a-bul sure tht da Tumkur Highway will lead dem to Pune...
for gtn tempted,makin mistakes bt still living wid their head held high...
for swearing in such colourful phrases...dey depict da emotions in such an exact manner...
for welcomin all n sundry wid such open arms...
for nt worrying upon da money matters n da bills...
for der uninhibited buddy talk...
for their "da-world-is-my-oyster" stance in life...
for being 16 or 60 bt still being young@heart...
for bliving dat all colours,all shades luk equally good on us...
for watching all da News Channels for da same repeatitive News,but actually for da different Female Anchors ;) ...
for being either gud or bad cooks,nothing in b/w...
for operating all da electronic gadgets of da world,bt still nt knowing how to tie their Tie...
for leading a team of 50 diversant people single-handedly, yet makin disastrous colour combinations...
for their colourful raunchy stress-buster jokes...
for their 'boys wil b boys' attitude...
for stil hopin to Fly a Kite,for stil hopin to catch her glance,for being on der best behaviour infront of da babes...even@60
for giving da PYT equal footage in their discussions whether dey r married/bachelors/teenagers or grand-dads...
for enjoyin da moment...
for nt lingering on in life,dey get up & tk da bull by da horns...straight on...
for their crazy dance steps...dat hold no inhibitions back...
for da serious luk on their faces...wen actually everything is topsy-turvy inside...
for der hug-n-dnt-u-wori-mah-princess gesture...
for der everything-wil-b-alrite stance...

for jst being there for me...

f for fear...f for fun...

its da fear within dat holds u back,
itz da fear imagines n creates new sad balloons of trivial things,
itz da fear dat clams u up...
itz da fear dat looses ur tongue too...
itz da fear dat restricts ur horizons...
itz da fear pushes u forward...though sometimes,
itz da fear dat dwarfs u...while still standing tall...
itz da fear dat says "datz itz allrite", though itz all wrong...
itz da fear dat creates a glass jail...
itz da fear...n not ur spirit...dat says "how can i?"
itz da fear dat creates monsters out of normal people...in our minds
itz da fear dat questions u everytime incessantly...
itz da fear depletes ur hold on life...
itz da fear dat corrodes ur confidence...
itz da fear gives birth to a crisis...
itz da fear dat brews da storms of life...
itz da fear dat says, "dis is destiny.period."
itz da fear steers ur life...to where we dont want to go...
itz da fear dat makes default seem like da only option...
itz da fear dat makes rectangles out of circles...
itz da fear dat makes us oblivious of our own strengths...
itz da fear dat makes us...what we think "i can't ever be like this"
itz da fear dat makes us afraid...
itz da fear dat doesn't let u fly...
itz da fear dat doesnt make da ends of the mouth reach towards the ceiling of da eyes...
itz da fear dat makes u dead...while still breathing...

let go...and live... ... ...

a door is closed...
a window is pushed open...

she says bye...
he says hi...

da sun sets....
da stars shine...

electricity goes...
candle's lite dances...

a stone sinks in the pond...
da ripples reach the shore...

da birds fly home...
mah door-bell rings...

da flowers bloom...
da leaves wither...


da thunder-strom rages...
da rainow is being manufactured...

derz birth...
derz also sickness...

smbdy clipz ur wings...
smbdy gives u da wind...

u gt reviews...
u gt bonuses too...

der a tear...
n derz a wink too...

i retire...
u hire...

Broken Leg,
Weak&Yellin Muscles,
Tired NerveEndingz,
pinchin blood capillaries,
buzzin tendons,
pureed Phalanges,
shakin kneecap,
jumpy jumpy heel-bone,
internetty Interphalangeal Joints,
swollen quadriceps,
bubblegummy ligamentz,
married Metatarsals,

rarin-2-go-shoppin spirit,
but on-a-song-Me!

love and perish...perish and love

luv dat identifies u, yet blurs u...
luv dat hurts u, yet pampers u...
luv dat is cool, yet boils u over...
luv dat polarizes u, yet isolates u ...
luv dat races u , yet paces u out ...
luv dat angers u , yet mellows itslf dwn ...
luv dat goes back , yet takes u beyond ...
luv dat is foreign , yet @hm ...
luv dat is surreal , yet so real ...
luv dat is virtual , yet it exists ...
luv datz dark , yet it glows ...
luv datz serene , yet red ...
luv datz a destination , yet a journey ...
luv dat is blue-in-da-face , yet so pink-with-health ...
luv datz a way , yet circles on ...
luv datz a drive on, yet it spiralz inwardz ...
luv dat stealz u , yet fulfillz u ...
luv dat givez , yet snatches n runz ...
luv datz strong , yet so fragile ...
luv datz molded , yet so definite ...
luv datz hard rock , yet so classical ...
luv dat creates , yet crumbles ...
luv dat is daring , yet a whisper ...
luv datz tit-for-tat , yet so forgiving...
luv datz in hell , yet singz...
luv datz a poem , yet dramatizes itself...
luv dat dances , yet coughs wid hurt...
luv datz a sweet-innocent smile , yet a noty wink...
luv datz a compromise , yet a challenge...


luv dat perishes, yet loves...

luv dat loves, yet perishes...

i want a magic wand...

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i want to cry out...
i want to jump off the 2nd floor...
i want to care a damn...
i want to sway in da rain...
i want to lock away my maid...
i want to wear dat crazy dress2work...
i want to dance carefree lk Palash Sen...
i want to put sm thingz in da invisible mode...
i want to Ctrl-Alt-Del a few entities roamin arnd me...
i want to climb a tree & tk a snooze there...
i want to feel full, widout eating-chewing...
i want to delete all da spam in da world...
i want to stop all da clocks(in da early morn only)...
i want to find all mah frndz all ovr agn...
i want to freeze mah face n youth...
i want to say it straight-in-da-face, no matter whoz face it is...

i want to flyyy...

there are some gestures that touch ur heart and soul...

gestures that defy logic...
gestures that are without conceit...
gestures that are widout intent...
gestures that are beautiful in their own way...
gestures that are widout adjustments...
gestures that are simple,yet so joyous...
gestures that are widout compromises...
gestures that are plain, yet earth-shattering...
gestures that are effortless, yet go a long mile...
gestures that are uncomplicated,yet they complicate ur life wid all da love dt dey represnt...

gestures that bring a smile2ur lipz ...
gestures that joy2ur soul n heart ...
gestures that bring a song2ur lipz...
gestures that care4u...
gestures that are unadorned,yet so pretty...
gestures that are silent,yet speak lines...
gestures that are here,yet travel miles...
gestures that are unpretentious...
gestures that are undemanding...
gestures that are painless,yet dey pain u wid all da love that they bring wid dem...

gestures that just happen,out of the blue...
gestures that give a message...
gestures that tell a story...
gestures that change ur life...
gestures that wear a mask,yet r so transparent...
gestures that are full of content...
gestures that are true,yet u cant bliv dem...
gestures that are dripping wid meaning...
gestures that seem like a dream...
gestures that fill ur tranquil life wid a lot of fluttering...
gestures that speak da language of da heart...
gestures that make you do somersaultz...
gestures that make u fall in love,all over agn...
gestures that steal ur peace...
gestures that are naive...
gestures that are emotional...
gestures that are so pure...
gestures that move us to tears...
gestures that are unplanned,yet they have so many layers to dem...
gestures that are a token,yet bring an avalanche in your being...

gestures that are so unthinkable...
gestures that are unquestioning in their belief...
gestures that are like cute li'l temple bells,tinklin away...
gestures that are like da heart of a flower...
gestures that create history...
gestures that change the geography...
gestures that take your chemistry to dizzing heights...
gestures that exponentially raise ur spirits...
gestures that mk u feel@home evn in faraway lands...
gestures that ask no questions and give no answers...
gestures that define ur life...
gestures that come wid a heart of their own...
gestures that are inactive,yet captivate u for da rest of ur life...
gestures that are so irrational,yet so meaningful...

gestures that are unconditional...

gestures that are so lovingly brutal,tht they injure u 4da rest of ur life!...

gestures that tk ur heart on rent,den forge a lease n finally own it!!!

a new monday,
bad as ever,
everything is the same,
only the date changes...

the weekend hangover is still present,
where did the weekend fly away? we keep askin ourselves,

no matter,
letz get bak to work. we keep reminding ourselves,

smile darling,
it isn't so bad,we keep inspiring ourselves,

spread the cheer around on this gloomy day,
keep ur chin up,we keep ordering ourselves,

shuffle da songz in da i-pod,
sing along in ur heart,feel the joy of da morning,

v r da future...
v r 2moro's bosses,feel da irony n feel gud ;)

da coffee is syrupy n weak,
nt gud 4 health anyway,adjust madi

da monday is already half-gone,
smile atleast now :)

should n would

i shud rest, but i wud go shoppin
i should slp, but i wud exercise my brain
i shud say hi, but i wud glance away
i shud contemplate, but i wud fire away
i shud tk a short-cut, but i wud tk da long way home
i shud teach, but i wud learn instead
i shud demand, but i wud give instead
i shud say 'no', but i wud nod in approval
i shud write, but i wud read instead
i shud buy, but i wud build instead
i shud obey, but i wud break-da-rule
i shud question, but i wud believe instead
i shud regret, but i wud laff away
i shud smile, but i wud think instead
i shud think, but i wud commit
i shud say 'yes', but i wud hmmmmm...
i shud wave bye, but i wud linger a-bit-more
i shud let-it-go, but i wud hold-on-wid-my-clenched-fingerz
i shud b logical, but i wud b sentimental
i shud b rational, but i wud b emotional
i shud protest, but i wud tolerate
i shud b patient, but i wud b on-tenter-hookz
i shud find-a-frnd, but i wud meet-a-stranger
i shud say 'i,me,myself', but i wud see otherz there b4 me
i shud zoooom-up, but i wud take-a-slide-dwn
i shud analyze, but i wud research-instead
i shud release, but i wud bury it-in-da-deep-recess-of-my-soul
i shud wonder, but i wud act
i shud work, but i wud dream
i shud b superficial, but i wud b real
i shud park, but i wud drive away
i shud save, but i wud close it
i shud sign, but i wud tear-it-away
i shud return, but i wud look-ahead
i shud leave, but i wud try-on-n-on
i shud publish, but i wud salt-it-away
i shud sort, but i wud put-it-away
i shud ***, but i wud ...

i shud have an ideal image, but i wud b me...


y is shud 'shud' n wud 'wud' ?

machines buzzing...
phones ringin...
ipod shufflin away...
keyboards clicketing away...
music blaring away...
how is it that, in all dis hustle-bustle i feel all alone...

in dis Local Area Network i feel all alone...
in dis WAN, i feel all alone...
in dis intranet, also i feel all alone...
in dis global village i feel all alone...
in dis connected world...y do i feel all alone?
ppl messaging me on 3 messengers n i replying back...bt i still feel all alone...

am online...but y do i feel offline?
am signed in...but y do i feel "Thanks For Signing Out"
am logged in...but y do i feel "Ctrl-Alt-Del"

i see everybody...but nobody sees me...
i say 'hi there'...nobody even says 'bye'...
where is everybody???

am restless,
the energy is mis-guided,
the spirit is weak,
am not me,
the world is not it,
the coffee feels stale,
the headlines feel ancient,
the maid doesn't turn up,
the mornin seems like a star-less...moon-less night,
the sleep doesn't go away,

thoughts r missing clarity,
the zing has fizzled out,
the josh has lost out,
the smile is droopy,
bad seems worse,
worse seems ok,

i do this...but that happens,
i say this...but that vocalises out,
i step up...but sink down,
i stare ahead...but nothing registers,
i spring ahead...but lose my balance,
i luk around4friends...but nobody is there,
i luk arnd4enemies...but they r also missin,
i wnt2feel gud...but actually i feel nothing,
i wnt2bfull...but i seem empty,
i wnt2lead...but i simply tag along,
i wnt2b a spirit...but i feel my spirit has spirited away,
i wnt2shout wid joy...but i whimper instead,
i wnt2tk on the world...but i say 'some other day!'
i wnt2b the new 'hope'...but am lukin4 a feel-gud-factor myself,
i wnt2smile...but y is my smile upside down?
i wnt2twinkle like a star...but i feel so far-far-away-from-myself,
i wnt2pep up thingz...but they gt zapped out instead...
i refresh(F5) myself...but the Life-Server says "Page Not Found",
i want to subscribe to www.inspiration.com but they say v r full,

am missin myself...

nothing feels the same...
is it a Monday Again?

eyes r droopy...
legs r weary...
spirit is waning...
head is buzzing...
morale is in the pits...
fingers r twitching...
hands are shivering...
nerves are aching...
the capillaries close-in...
the heart slows down...
the guilt doesn't hurt anymore...
the cud-have-beens dont worry anymore...
the being is weak...
the coffee doesn't work any more...
the sleep has gone to sleep,leavin me all alone...
the various ills seem like old-buddies...
the phone-ring doesn't startle any more...
the bills don't worry anymore...
the vision blurs...
the gait shivers...
the hands shake...
the spring-in-the-step has rusted,long long ago...
the most annoying of all things,dont ruffle a feather anymore...
the eyes see, but dont register...
the ears hear, but dont listen...
the lips move, but dont speak...
the nose inhales, but doesn't breathe in...
the hands move, but dont strike...
the legs get up to move forward, but go backwards...
the page is open, but we don't read...
friends and strangers seem the same...
the soul is already resting...

me is tired...

i am not living...i lived!

Sometimes v have designs on life,
And sometimes life has designs on us…

some designs r gud...
sm r nt...

some r delibrate...
sm r nt...

some designs r imagined...
sm r nt...

some designs r appropiate...
sm r nt...

some designs r contrived...
sm r nt...

some designs r real
sm r nt...

some designs r designed
sm r nt...

some designs pass u by...
sm do nt...

some designs go awry...
sm do nt...

some designs jump at u...
sm tk their own sweet time...

some designs r confused...
sm have missile-radar technology in them...

some designs r absurd...
sm hit the Bull's Eye!

some designs u've an inklin of...
some designs try u…

sm r already tried…
sm surprise u...

some designs go roamin...
sm come straight home...

some designs get across...
sm bounce bak...

some designs r crippled...
sm r Goliaths...

some designs buckle u down...
sm make u a Man!

sm of them shake u...
sm of them make u...

a new darkness, an old darkness...

there exists some darkness in all our lives,
some are new,some are centuries old...
some are family, some are guests...
itz the new one that engulfs you in itz grips...

the old one is easy,
itz the new one that worries u...

the old one is history,
the new one is a mystery...

the old one has its own symptoms,
the new one slowly reveals itself...

the old one is like family,
the new one is a first-time guest...

the old one already has its time period clocked,
the new one will take its own sweet time ...

the old one just passes you by,
itz the new one that bothers u ...

the old one is an old old maid,
the new one is a virgin...

the old one lulls you to sleep,
itz the new one that keeps you awake...

the old one just goes away,
itz the new one that wills your willpower...

the old one doesn't miss a beat,
itz the new one that makes u get up n take notice...

the old one doesn't bat an eyelid,
itz the new one that forces decisions...

the old one is a family heirloom,
the new one is an in-thing piece...

the old one is brushed aside,
the new one is flaunted...

the old one is been-there-done-that,
the new one is new...