am restless,
the energy is mis-guided,
the spirit is weak,
am not me,
the world is not it,
the coffee feels stale,
the headlines feel ancient,
the maid doesn't turn up,
the mornin seems like a star-less...moon-less night,
the sleep doesn't go away,

thoughts r missing clarity,
the zing has fizzled out,
the josh has lost out,
the smile is droopy,
bad seems worse,
worse seems ok,

i do this...but that happens,
i say this...but that vocalises out,
i step up...but sink down,
i stare ahead...but nothing registers,
i spring ahead...but lose my balance,
i luk around4friends...but nobody is there,
i luk arnd4enemies...but they r also missin,
i wnt2feel gud...but actually i feel nothing,
i wnt2bfull...but i seem empty,
i wnt2lead...but i simply tag along,
i wnt2b a spirit...but i feel my spirit has spirited away,
i wnt2shout wid joy...but i whimper instead,
i wnt2tk on the world...but i say 'some other day!'
i wnt2b the new 'hope'...but am lukin4 a feel-gud-factor myself,
i wnt2smile...but y is my smile upside down?
i wnt2twinkle like a star...but i feel so far-far-away-from-myself,
i wnt2pep up thingz...but they gt zapped out instead...
i refresh(F5) myself...but the Life-Server says "Page Not Found",
i want to subscribe to www.inspiration.com but they say v r full,

am missin myself...

nothing feels the same...
is it a Monday Again?