should n would

i shud rest, but i wud go shoppin
i should slp, but i wud exercise my brain
i shud say hi, but i wud glance away
i shud contemplate, but i wud fire away
i shud tk a short-cut, but i wud tk da long way home
i shud teach, but i wud learn instead
i shud demand, but i wud give instead
i shud say 'no', but i wud nod in approval
i shud write, but i wud read instead
i shud buy, but i wud build instead
i shud obey, but i wud break-da-rule
i shud question, but i wud believe instead
i shud regret, but i wud laff away
i shud smile, but i wud think instead
i shud think, but i wud commit
i shud say 'yes', but i wud hmmmmm...
i shud wave bye, but i wud linger a-bit-more
i shud let-it-go, but i wud hold-on-wid-my-clenched-fingerz
i shud b logical, but i wud b sentimental
i shud b rational, but i wud b emotional
i shud protest, but i wud tolerate
i shud b patient, but i wud b on-tenter-hookz
i shud find-a-frnd, but i wud meet-a-stranger
i shud say 'i,me,myself', but i wud see otherz there b4 me
i shud zoooom-up, but i wud take-a-slide-dwn
i shud analyze, but i wud research-instead
i shud release, but i wud bury it-in-da-deep-recess-of-my-soul
i shud wonder, but i wud act
i shud work, but i wud dream
i shud b superficial, but i wud b real
i shud park, but i wud drive away
i shud save, but i wud close it
i shud sign, but i wud tear-it-away
i shud return, but i wud look-ahead
i shud leave, but i wud try-on-n-on
i shud publish, but i wud salt-it-away
i shud sort, but i wud put-it-away
i shud ***, but i wud ...

i shud have an ideal image, but i wud b me...


y is shud 'shud' n wud 'wud' ?

machines buzzing...
phones ringin...
ipod shufflin away...
keyboards clicketing away...
music blaring away...
how is it that, in all dis hustle-bustle i feel all alone...

in dis Local Area Network i feel all alone...
in dis WAN, i feel all alone...
in dis intranet, also i feel all alone...
in dis global village i feel all alone...
in dis connected world...y do i feel all alone?
ppl messaging me on 3 messengers n i replying back...bt i still feel all alone...

am online...but y do i feel offline?
am signed in...but y do i feel "Thanks For Signing Out"
am logged in...but y do i feel "Ctrl-Alt-Del"

i see everybody...but nobody sees me...
i say 'hi there'...nobody even says 'bye'...
where is everybody???